As school starts

Basically, school has been up and down, two days in.
*I am rooming with Katie Jones-Lucero and Sharay. They are awesome and cheer me up when upset and love my enthusiasm.
*I'm excited about all my classes: Christian Foundations, Understanding Jazz, Women's chorale, General Psychology, Christian Beliefs, Photography 1, and American Sign language 101. High points so far: Listening to a few examples of different eras of Jazz, a not bad text for CF, and singing again, watching a silly veggietales song at the end of gen psych, discussing what Theology is, a silly joke told by Irv, not having to end up buying the expensive photography book, and learning to sign the alphabet and numbers 0-10.
*Forrest Cammack has been such a blessing.
*I miss Steve, Willy, Melissa, Oscar, Heather and a few others who aren't here no more, they helped make Fox Fox. Fortunately Willy came to the hoedown, and I heard from Smo yesterday and hope to recieve a letter from him. Willy lives in Clackamas, so he's gonna be around as much as possible.
*I am out of the job. I considered a new job near the end of last year, but didn't want to fill another app out, and they changed the schedule around because of the reconstructed dining area. I was not fired, but these factors let me not have a position for the year. So I'm now jobless and on the hunt. Oh well all I did was wipe counters it seems and that was boring. I was and is still considering working at Foxhole, but it's only one night for a certain amount of time, and I need more hours. So prayers please.


Well that's all for now!

As summer starts to come to close...

I'm way too ready to go back to Fox. I'm bored out of my mind and spending way too much time with Grandma (well, maybe not enough, but just enough to drive me insane). Plus I have few friends here and they are always busy, and can't drive. Stupid permit test...gr... And all my good Rogue River buddies, aren't... tears.. there anymore... (Cliff is a RR but we're not close lol).

Pros:
*Last Saturday Jen Cushman, Alex Post and Kirsten came to Medford and surprised me! My whole family BUT me was in on it. Lol. We went to Red Robin, had Cold Stone, and came to my house, looked at the horses, taught everyone but Kirsten (she knew already) to do archery, and hung out. They even had me dust off my sax and play it!!!

*Heather was coming through Medford and stopped at my place, we gave Skip a peppermint (He loves vistors because we have to feed him peppermints so he'd smile for the guests), ate dinner, made a silly fb video, listened to music, watched funny youtube vids, and watched a little Jeff Dunham.

*Today I had to entertain some kids with Spongebob, our horses (Skip wouldn't smile even with the treat) and many other things while their daddy worked on my Dad's Rhino. They were polite, but the two year old was very needy. Still wore me out. I'm not into Spongebob, so I gave them my Spongebob pillow and drink cup from Universal studios.

* Tomorrow morning I get an opportunity for more experience as a future youth minister (Reverend Zerkel, nice ring to it huh?) by helping at Sunday school tomorrow.

*I have done the children's moment in a service at church, and the kids loved it, they told me so!!! It was about listening to God. I had 4 items: a heart, an ipod, a cell phone and an ear. I asked them which item lets them truly listen to God. First service the guess was ear and heart. They were right on the heart, I told them that opening our hearts is the best way, because the ear is too easily distracted, and the other stuff doesn't help either. Lol, second service ipod. I said true you can put Christian music on there, but that wasn't it. It was fun =D!

* Steven Mortinson and I are planning on doing a joint project, aka my poetry his photography! We're making it into a book with 15 of my pieces and Steve's photography that fits each. It's called, by Steve's suggestion, Me, Myself and Kim, although, lol, that sounds selfish to me, cause it isn't just my book. Steve, new title? Lol. Draft is sent to Steven, now we need photos and edits, then Steve will use a program to see it published! All his idea!

Me and my loco life

I'm doing good, for the most part. Jobless, bored 90% of the time, trying to figure out my rooming sitch and life, almost considered not coming back to Fox, but I was dumb cause I love it there and I know God wants me there. Struggles with being in the middle of relationship issues, everyone counting on me, and taking my drivers permit test for the 7th time Thurs. Plus my good buddy is transferring schools, I'll miss him a lot but he's gonna do fine in God's calling. No acting crazy while flying and crashing k? Lol. I've been staying somewhat active, walking almost every day and it's beautiful cause we live in a farm area next to Harry and David's orchards, with lots of flowers around our house and roses coming into our driveway, love LOVE roses. I have also ice skated the last two Tuesdays, and have improved a lot, (I have skated be4, been a while), and today grew to adore it!

I like home, but I can't wait to return to Fox. I feel so at home there, weird, but I've grown there much more than at home it seems.

I have also made two slide shows. One for all my Fox friends I have pictures of unless I forgot I had pics of them, and one for my buddy who's leaving for Michigan missionary aviation school, but will post another time too because it's taking a while to load!! I hope you enjoy. I made another all Fox friends for those who got left out and will post it soon!

Fork in the road analogy

Imagine: You’re on a path of your life, and reach a fork in the road. On the left, the path of sadness, pain, hurt, anger, shame, and on the right, the path of redemption, love, compassion, and hope. Ashamed at your past, sins and hurt, or ones you’re creating, you are so tempted to go down the left path. You feel you are not worthy, and start to head down that path, feeling it is you, your mistakes consume. God is sadden at your choice, and tries hard to gently lead you to the other path. He speaks, strong and gentle of voice, saying, “My child, nothing you do will lessen or strengthen my love for you, come to Me.”
But, so unworthy we feel, so we ignore it, still believing He loves us, but not worthy of it. While we sin and aren’t the best, God sent Jesus down to clean us, because He loved us enough. He is at the end of the right path, arms open, smiling wide, full of pride and happiness in His loving eyes, saying, “You have pleased Me My child.” Running to Him, He embraces you, and His love surrounds.
My friends, family, loved ones, never forget, God’s Hesed, Hebrew for steadfast love for you, and the right path, tread it, for God wants you to come to Him, even through shame, anger, tragedy, and feelings of worthlessness. I know you all will go to heaven, because His love is beyond our comprehension, but He loves us equally.

God bless,
Kim

Uncollected thoughts

I ask the question
why abuse the mission,
to say the Word,
to spread You through every life,
broken at Your feet,
I ask "Why?",
our world is so focused on image,
not heart,
why can't the world see me?
See me like You?
Have we become so blind?

The speck is big,
no eye-cleaner removes the stain,
He's trying to rub it off,
but we spill again,
the humble are silent,
the arrogant are loud,
why are we so blind?
Compassion fades,
dark thoughts shroud,
can't we reach for others,
society's outcasts,
they are wise beyond appearence,
insight,
lost to the ages,

Where have we gone?
We've turned away,
I admit no perfection,
beyond reflection,
do we even know what love is?
Can we be the judge?
No!
No!
No!
He is love,
with such depth,
none can imitate,


Speak again,
speak and let it come to pass,
words of redemption,
the world refuses to hear,
Speak again,
LET ME LET GO!
Echoes,
of words,
rebounding,
waken our hearts,
open our eyes,
to see You!

New Semester, new times

*Hamlet video was a success, teacher loved it and cast had a blast!
*I threw a fun Valentines day party, man can Steve and Alex shake it!!! Dance boys, dance! Good food, good movie, good company, good times!
*I'm improving in Ultimate frisbee, catching passes, throwing, in fact last Thursday I caught my first touchdown pass!!!!!! I'm also starting to have a large amount of energy, guess it's because I'm starting to be positive and my team is constantly kickin' butt! Barracuda strikes, teeth of steel!!!
* Work is getting slightly better, my team leader on Fridays knows I love to serve!!!
* Classes are good and easy, though poetry can be a pain.
* I'm making new friends and growing closer to those I am friends with already!
*I did a coin drive for Shriners, and made quite a lot, but I've had a hard time getting to get the downlow on getting them the money, will let you know the amount when plausible.
*I've been writing and recording songs!
*I saw the awesome Alex Post perform in Portland ( he rocked yo!) and open mike thing at some person's house, impactful night, for more info message me!
*Alex and I are working on a hip-hop song that has an eye-opening message!!!
*I got to play chutes and ladders with my good friends Katelyn and Justin!!!
*God says I'm going through my major spiritual transformation, and I'm changing for the better.
*I stupidly pulled an all-nighter
*I have a sensor that monitors my blood sugars 24/7 and it's a pain and wakes me up, but it's sooooo worth it!!! =D
*I have my first choir concert of the semester Friday!!! Yes, I dropped french, and now I'm also in voice class, and it's helping me grow vocal wise and confidence wise!!! I love it, I'm learning two solo pieces, "Sunrise, Sunset" from Fiddler on the Roof, and "The Wizard and I" from Wicked the musical!
*I am attending Mr. Bruin, and excited for the fact that Shriners is the charity!!!
*I got my first beautiful Valentines day rose from a good friend!!! =D

Mirror on the inside revised

I thought I'd turn this into hip-hop style, and felt it should be longer, enjoy! Tell me whatcha think!



Beauty is vain,
beauty is pain,
I don't want to be the social norm,
I just want to be reborn,
through Christ filled with grace,
He who saved the human race,
I'm more than a pretty face,

Humanity can't tell me,
who I'm meant and need to be,
can't you look beyond skin,
and find other's beauty within,
I defy all boundaries,
God gives me these remedies,

You can't tell me 'cause I'm a girl I can't preach,
'cause God's word I'll still teach,
It's my calling,
every day I'll falling,
for my glorious Lord above,
His love exceeding your low conceptions of love,
I'm strong in Him who saved us through pain,
to bring His sweet healing rain,

To Him I'm His beautiful bride,
it's all about the beauty on the inside,
God judges the human heart,
and from us He'll never depart,
we girls got more that our looks,
don't judge on cover of books.


Beauty is vain,
beauty is pain.