I pretend to be something I'm not just for you,
hide the hurt you've put me through,
I long to scream,
you can't stop talking about it,
leaving promises dry,
I long to scream,
SCREAM
Because I've wasted time lying to myself,
holding it all in,
trying to just survive instead of livin',
swallowing your lies,
foolish me,
now drowning in your misery,
my tears fell,
as the clock strikes,
trust a broken song,
I used to sing,
now I long to
SCREAM,
Because it seemed so easy not to speak,
but in the end silence isn't golden,
cause it rips and tears the inside of me,
I know perfection is far,
but can you blame me for trying,
because you are,
fighting and not winning,
but surrender is so damn easy,
and it begs,
SCREAM
AH,
SCREAM,
You crave to break free,
SCREAM,
won't come out because the setting is wrong,
LET IT OUT!
*Disclaimer don't cuss usually but tonight...*
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
As school starts
Basically, school has been up and down, two days in.
*I am rooming with Katie Jones-Lucero and Sharay. They are awesome and cheer me up when upset and love my enthusiasm.
*I'm excited about all my classes: Christian Foundations, Understanding Jazz, Women's chorale, General Psychology, Christian Beliefs, Photography 1, and American Sign language 101. High points so far: Listening to a few examples of different eras of Jazz, a not bad text for CF, and singing again, watching a silly veggietales song at the end of gen psych, discussing what Theology is, a silly joke told by Irv, not having to end up buying the expensive photography book, and learning to sign the alphabet and numbers 0-10.
*Forrest Cammack has been such a blessing.
*I miss Steve, Willy, Melissa, Oscar, Heather and a few others who aren't here no more, they helped make Fox Fox. Fortunately Willy came to the hoedown, and I heard from Smo yesterday and hope to recieve a letter from him. Willy lives in Clackamas, so he's gonna be around as much as possible.
*I am out of the job. I considered a new job near the end of last year, but didn't want to fill another app out, and they changed the schedule around because of the reconstructed dining area. I was not fired, but these factors let me not have a position for the year. So I'm now jobless and on the hunt. Oh well all I did was wipe counters it seems and that was boring. I was and is still considering working at Foxhole, but it's only one night for a certain amount of time, and I need more hours. So prayers please.
Well that's all for now!
*I am rooming with Katie Jones-Lucero and Sharay. They are awesome and cheer me up when upset and love my enthusiasm.
*I'm excited about all my classes: Christian Foundations, Understanding Jazz, Women's chorale, General Psychology, Christian Beliefs, Photography 1, and American Sign language 101. High points so far: Listening to a few examples of different eras of Jazz, a not bad text for CF, and singing again, watching a silly veggietales song at the end of gen psych, discussing what Theology is, a silly joke told by Irv, not having to end up buying the expensive photography book, and learning to sign the alphabet and numbers 0-10.
*Forrest Cammack has been such a blessing.
*I miss Steve, Willy, Melissa, Oscar, Heather and a few others who aren't here no more, they helped make Fox Fox. Fortunately Willy came to the hoedown, and I heard from Smo yesterday and hope to recieve a letter from him. Willy lives in Clackamas, so he's gonna be around as much as possible.
*I am out of the job. I considered a new job near the end of last year, but didn't want to fill another app out, and they changed the schedule around because of the reconstructed dining area. I was not fired, but these factors let me not have a position for the year. So I'm now jobless and on the hunt. Oh well all I did was wipe counters it seems and that was boring. I was and is still considering working at Foxhole, but it's only one night for a certain amount of time, and I need more hours. So prayers please.
Well that's all for now!
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