Thankful for August 1st-3rd

*Good food
*Naps
*God
*Family
*Kim time
* Soda
* Fans
* Getting my nails done
* Dogs

Thankful for July 30th

*Good wine

*Good food

*Mom’s grilled cheese

*Seeing Zookeeper with dad

*Popcorn

*Dad’s humor

*Soda

*Strawberries

*Anne of Green Gables the movie

*Alyssa

*My family

* Dogs

*My fan

*Writing

*comfy couches

*Blankets

Things I am thankful for July 28th

*Good food

*Soda

*My dogs

*Harry Potter

*Going to wild river

*Sunshine

*Fans

Things I am thankful for July 27th

*Sleeping in

* The Muffin man lol

*Cincinatti Chili

*Good movies

* My fav diet drinks

*Fruit snacks and glucose tabs

*My dogs

*Puss in Boots

*Alex Post

*Naps

*My fan

Things I am thankful for lately

I have found thinking of the good things in life helps me with my problems lately, even though only a little. So I am going back to posting daily things I am thankful for, and maybe other things. I won't be posting poems, I have something else for that!

This is stuff I just have recently been thankful for:

*Harry Potter

*Good food

*Going to Brookings for the Fourth

*Diet Sunkist and Diet Dr. Pepper

*My dogs

*Movies

*Reading

*Seeing the Young Dubliners in concert for free with Sara, Katelyn and Mark, getting fun pictures

*The fair, trying a bite of fried snickers, fried oreos and eating kettle corn. Plus cool animals,

fun pictures and getting a wheelchair ride lol

* Seeing HP 7 part 2

*Emmigrant lake water slides

*Mom lending me her laptop till my charger comes in

*My family and friends

*My counselor and doctors

* Pokemon

*Naps

Things I am thankful for 5/15

*Good Food
*Tyler McCoon and Taylor B.
*The loving community at Solid Rock
*Feeling at peace
*GOD GOD GOD GOD GOD GOD GOD GOD GOD and of course JESUS JESUS JESUS
*Cute clothes
*Caffeine
*Anything warm
*Umbrella
*Laughter
*Kindness

Things I am thankful 5/14

*Good food
*Caffeine
*Hanging with Tyler McCoon and Inge
*Sparkling cider
*Tangled
*Nice warm bed
*Comfy clothes
*God
*Getting some cleaning done
*My roommate

Things I am thankful for 5/5-5/14

*Good food
*Friends
*Caffeine
*GOD!
*Stuff animals
*Naps
*Writing a paper on a Disney movie
*Class about Socrates/Plato
*Ice cream cookie sandwiches
*Seeing Thor with Tyler McCoon and friends
*McDeezy/hanging with Tyler McCoon and Inge
*My new ipod (well its mom's old one)
*Walking around the track
*Sunshine
*Spring
*Ludwig Von Drake (Disney character, related to Donald Duck) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=arZRYbtb20M&feature=channel_video_title
*Stars
*When Ninja visited me and Holly (my roommate)
*My roommate
*Blankets
*Lilo and Stitch
*Music
*Elizabeth Kettner

Things I am thankful for 5/2-5/4

*An awesome roommate
*Good food
*Naps
*God
*Friends
*Seeing mom
*Not having to move to different housing for May term
*Today's Ethic class
*Getting out early the last two days
*Being productive
*Getting good nights of sleep
*Free time
*My bed
*My hw for class (as it what it is and length)
*Sunshine

Things I am thankful for 5/1/11

*President Obama's speech on the death of Osama
*Good food
*Hottubing
*Caffeine
*Getting out of Newberg for a little bit
*Getting a good night's sleep
*Patriotism
*God
*My RAs and Area Coordinator.
*Seeing Mom

Things I am thankful for 4/27-4/30

*This week's episode of Glee
*Friends
*Ultimate frisbee
*Caffeine
*Getting all my finals done in a timely manner
*Lunch Date with Jay
*Kfox station manager getting all of the people involved drinks at the foxhole
*Being done with finals
*Getting my interdis contract done
*Signing up for May Term
*Finding some of my close buddies staying for May term or part of the summer
*God
*Sarah Baldwin
*My professors
*Matt Meyer's brownies
*Naps
*Getting a seat in the actual place graduation is taking place
*Good food
*Hugs
*poetry
*photography
*sunshine

Things I am thankful for 4/26

*Friends
*Good food
*Singin' in the Friends with some of my pals!
*Finding something might not be worth the stress.
*Getting my first final in a few hours before it was due!
*Caffeine
*Finding a Robin's nest
*Actually enjoying dinner at the bon
*God
*Sarah's cupcakes!

Thankful for 4/25/11

*Naps
*Good food
*Friends
*God

Thankful for 4/22/11-4/24

*Photography
*Being in Austin Tott photos
*Good food
*Sunshine (not today unfortunately)
*Throwing frisbee
*BK
*Naps
*Jesus who laid His life for me and rose today!
*God
*Family
*My best friend
*A deep talk with my roommate
*Easter bunnies
*Easter eggs
*Music
*Chocolate
*Deep, meaningful conversations
*Walking shoeless in the grass
*Smells of spring
*Spring flowers
*Birds singing
*SPRING
*People I sat with at dinner (4/24)
*How well Kimberly Megan Zerkel photography photos come out!!!!

Things I am thankful for 4/21/11

*Sun
*Playful doggies
*Throwing a frisbee with Nick Largusa (always a pleasure), Tyler RR (hahah he was so much fun) and some other new people (I forgot their names =c )
*Scriptwriting class (except for the more gruesome parts of some scripts)
*Good food
*Seeing Doug and Liz Forester
*My mom and her Easter basket (I am not going home this weekend so...)
*Caffeine
*Ultimate frisbee, my spectacular catch and dive, and the support of my fellow players. They always have my back.

Things I am thankful for 4/20/11

*Friends
*Doc Film Festival
*Yummy Popcorn
*Good food
*Flowers
*Sunny weather
*Frisbee

Things I am thankful for 4/19

*Amanda Graber, Tyler Rhys Robertson, Mason, and other people who just blessed me today

*Friends

*Naked (the juice) even if I wasn't the one drinking it... lol

*Sarah Gibson

*Caffeine

*Good food

*People excited to read my script

*Photography

*A patient God

Things I am thankful for 4/18

*Caffeine

*Good food

*Class getting out early,

*Events production

*Women in the Bible class

*CMCO people

Things I am thankful for 4/17

*Friends
*God
*Good food
*Caffeine
*Riley House spaghetti dinner
*Glucose gel
*Sunshine
*A chance to walk around the track a few laps

Good

My friend Tyler knocked some sense into me, and I am thankful for it, so I figured I'd post things I'm passionate about, and find some pride in (though there's always room for improvement!) to help me realize the good in my life and in myself.

*I love CMCO. I like filming, directing, and sometimes editing (when I don't want to launch final cut out the window). I like the people I work with, and doing what I love.

*Art. True it's a side job, but even though it's not the best, I'm learning the more I practice.

*Ballet. I've been teaching myself, and though I barely know everything, it's a beautiful form of expression. I am also almost obsessed with watching it!!!

*Photography, capturing God's creation and portraying a message through a wonderful medium.

*Acting, it's fun and helps escape situations in a good way, because it is not reality, you just are a player in the play's reality.

*Poetry/writing, I love writing the most (as well as film and singing, and ballet if
I get farther) . I can be myself and it doesn't talk back. And spoken word is a good outlet.

*My friends, who push me, and love me, are patient with me. They see my potential and try to help me make it shine. I see God in every single one of them.

*Singing, I love it. It's my way of worship and can't express how it makes me feel. I like my voice, but I have much training still to do.

*Making meals for friends. I like cooking for people, because I love food, and a meal is a great way to hang out, especially if you have guys, they loooooovvvveee to eat!!! And so do I.

*Ultimate frisbee. I am the Barracuda. Yeah. Oh yeah. I am still not much of a runner, and my long throws/catches need some work, but my teammates appreciate my effort, and the fact I score a lot (I beat the boys in scores, lol... and they like it ahahah). The only thing I'm good at sportswise.

*Archery. I love the sound of hitting the target. And everything else.

*Reading, cause I can forget my problems and be involved in a good book (haven't done much reading lately though) =(

Things I am thankful for 4/16

*Honesty
*Patience
*Friends
*God
*Poetry
*CMCO people
*Fox Film Festival
*Pictures with awesome people
*Nice comments on my art or poetry, or my dress.
*Getting to meet Tyler's sister!
*Good food
*Snazzy dress clothes and gloves

Things I am thankful for 4/15 until now

*Yummy dinner
*Pretty Dress
*My group for the dance
*Silk gloves
*A fan
*Water
*Caffeine
*Friends
*God
*Shower and bath after being so hot at the dance
*Dancing
*Music
* Doing the creep

Thankful for 4/10-4/15/11

*Blazers game
*Good food
*Sunshine
*Getting my dress in the mail before the final
*The card mom sent
*Getting to help with a friend's birthday surprise
*Tea
*Hot bubble baths
*Caffeine
*Tyler Rhys Robertson, Karisa, Inge, Kris, Erin D. and my other amazing friends
*Poetry and spoken word
*Photography
*Cheese
*Writing snail mail
*Art, doing it and viewing it
*Gina, Ari and Beth's art show (I don't know Beth)
*Kiwanos (a horned melon, look it up)
*Hugs
*Radio
*Good game of ultimate frisbee
*Music
*Having one class canceled every day (well Thurs. we didn't have class but we met with our Prof Matt for final scripts)
*Matt liking my idea, and giving good suggestions
*Scotty visiting!!!
*Getting another personal wedding invite to Brianna Houck's wedding (A friend from HS)

Thankful for 4/5-4/10/11

*Good food
*Family
*Friends
*5 dollar Blazer tickets
*Husky hat
*Caffeine
*Honesty
*God
*Photography
*Movies
*Laughter and humor
*Kind acts
*Chivalry
*Sunshine
*Music and singing
*Daffodils
*River and Billy
*Chapters
*Hugs
*Comedy
*the Beatles movies: Help!, Celebration and A Day in the Life

Things I am thankful for 4/2/11

*Filming Let's Make A Deal and winning a makeup bag
*Good food
*Friends
*Costumes

Things I'm thankful 4/1/11

*Photos
*Sunshine
*Good food
*Friends
*God

Things I'm thankful for 3/31/11

*Sunshine
*Doing photography (like above)
*Friends
*God
*Good food
*Caffeine
*Daffodils
*Spring
*Ultimate Frisbee

Thankful for 3/30/11

*Humor in the bible
*Weather
*Good food
*Friends
*Book club

Things I thanful for 3/29/11

*Cute animal hats
*Chocolate milk
*Good food
*Caffeine
*Friends
*Scriptwriting class
*Matt Meyer

Things I am thankful for 3/28/11

*Tea my roomie shared with me
*Filming episodic style in Event Production
*Humor in the Bible class and getting a little picture of "Laughing Jesus"
*Getting out of my two classes longer than an hour early (got out by about 20 mins)
*Tyler, Sarah Baldwin, Amanda Graber, Jared Whitney and my other friends
*Seeing friends again after a week
*Good food
*Silly faces and jokes
*Howard showing us his Jesus and Sigmund Freud figurines!
*Family
*Getting a second wedding invite sent to just me
*Women in the Bible class and the speakers!

Things I am thankful for 3/27/11

*Yummy breakfast made by Mom
*Good food
*Fun with mom
*Talking to Brian Fernandez via facebook chat
*Red Robin for dinner
*A well stocked fridge
*Watching a part of my favorite movie with my roomie
*Romantic music
*Snow

Thankful for 3/26/11

*Yummy dinner
*Having Bri, Dan and their family over (not sure who's parents came)
*Ayla
*Relaxing
*Naps
*Medicine

Thankful for 3/25/11

*Getting a good amount of rest
*Yummy food
*Chilling with the family
*Ayla

Thankful for 3/24/11

*Good food
*Snow
*Getting to bed safely
*Good drink at dinner
*Ayla
*Heat
*Just getting to hang out

Thankful for 3/23/11

*My dogs
*Church bible study
*Yummy food
*Having the day to just do homework and chill
*A compassionate God
*Finishing all my homework

Thankful for 3/22/11

*Allergy medicine
*5 beautiful dogs
*Mom's over medium eggs and bacon
*Good food
*Getting a much needed hair cut and nails done
*Costco samples
*"Angry Conversations with God"
*Writing
*Kim time
*"Get It Right" or Rachel's original song from Glee
*God
*Family
*Sunshine

Thankful for 3/21/11

*Washing the dogs (though it was a pain in the butt)
*Susan Issac's "Angry Conversations with God"
*Sonic's for lunch
*Chilling with Cobi in the car while Mom and sis did errands.
*Ayla saying hi to me
**Eating mom's chicken and rice.... yum....
*Monday night crew (Every Monday night we have some of my folks' employees or close family friends come over, eat dinner mom makes, and hang out)
*Mom making chip beef on toast for breakfast

Thankful for 3/20/11

*Good lunch
*Celebrating Barb's birthday with my family and Barb at Roadhouse grill
*Naps
*A great sermon at church
*Watching Ayla getting bathed
*Going to the mall (even though I'm not a fan of clothes shopping)
*New shoes and a sports undershirt

Thankful for 3/19/11

*Having a dog to snuggle with again
*Yummy breakfast made by mom with a glass of milk
*My doggies
*Naps
*Grandma making yummy grilled cheese
*Getting some Kim time

Thankful for 3/18/11

*No classes
*Seeing my family
*Five happy, tailwagging dogs
*Subway
*Getting home safely
*Caffeine
*Finding an adorable dress to wear for the Fox Film Festival/formal and some other cute stuff

Thankful for 3/17/11

Favorite things and intense mud covering...

*Two of my besties Jaynie and Kirsten making me my favorite meal, Cincinnati chili!
*Zack helping me when I accidentally cut a little of my finger (just a scratch) with a knife.
* Tyler's work on editing the Letter!
*My Friends
*Caffeine
*Reading Pam's part for our readout of my group's script from the Office, "Assassin's Creed".
*My highest score in Ultimate frisbee, 6 touchdowns

Thankful for 3/16/11

*Jaynie's birthday bash
*Mcdonalds
*Good food
*Friends
*Prayer
*Kind hearted people
*Naps
*Caffeine

Thankful for 3/15/11

*Nap
*Cute clothes
*Getting to read a group's script for Big Bang Theory playing Penny
*Good food
*Friends
*Creating a kick butt trailer for my Fox Film Festival

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kuc2N93oIIM

*Mason singing Forget You and Baby, he does a way better job than Bieber

Thankful for 3/14/11

*Cute clothes
*Tyler Rhys Robertson and my friends
*Naps
*Good food
*Working on the Office script and getting one of my ideas put in our main script
*Pizza and soda

Thankful for 3/13/11

*Friends
*Bon omelets
*Good food
*Seeing Jessica and Willy
*Hot showers
*Sweat pants and other comfy clothes
*Decent sleep
*Warm clothes
*Brawling

Thankful for 3/12/11

Believe in Your Heart

*Good food
*Friends
*God
*Writing
*Jaynie's rollerskating party (although I didn't skate well at all)
*Filming
*Seeing Willy
*Caffeine
*Nap
*Patient people

Thankful for 3/11/11

*Good food
*Naps
*Friends
*God
*Warm blanket
*Caffeine
*Movies
*Having Kim time
*Kind words
*Julianne coming to pick me up when it was getting dark out...thanks girlie!
*That my old Japanese exchange student Yumiko is alright!

Thankful for 3/10/11

How life is still making me feel

*My first class canceled
*Naps
*Good food
*Dominoes pizza
*My presentation going slightly better than I thought,
*Got done with art opening film stuff early
*My friends
*God
*Kind words
*I was still able to make UF tonight
*Poetry
*A yummy breakfast
*Milk

Thankful for 3/9/11

*Friends
*Naps
*Kfox
*DS
*Food
*Caffeine

Thankful for 3/8/11

*Good food
*Friends
*Naps
*Fun
*Sunshine

Thankful for 3/7/11

*Friends
*Class getting out early
*Not having an evening class tonight
*Lecrae
*God
*Pokemon for Ds
*A caring family
*Naps

Thankful for 3/6/11

Once again.. this is what I want to be doing

*Sleeping in (yet still tired)
*Making my first grilled cheese and it turned out good (a wee bit darker than I like, but still yummy)
*Good food
*Working on our script "the Office" with Jimmy, Nathan, Joel and Mason!!!
*Tyler's humor
*Mason always spicing my ideas for the script up!
*Finding Mason also likes Pokemon DS
*Getting some homework done (because I was more motivated to do it, and was able to stay motivated, whereas before I got less done than I wanted because of lack of motivation)
*God

Thankful for 3/5/11

(No picture)

*Caffeine
*Jen and Allie's dinner for the Ultimate Frisbee folks
*Naps
*Weekends
*Bruin girls basketball going to Sweet 16
*Warmth

Thankful for 3/4/11

Me being a dork

*Good food
*Naps
*Music
*Dinner with Mom, Kathy and Neil
*Mom and I getting to hang out at Kathy and Neil's. Mom got to scrapbook like she loves to do, and I got to watch "How to Train a Dragon" like I love to do... well movies in general
*Charlie the Dachshund, snuggling and his kisses
*Umbrellas and rain boots
*More groceries, thanks Mom (we forgot some things)
*Watching Jonah: a Veggie Tales movie clips in class and just in general.
*Robert Hall and my other palsies
*God
*Caffeine
*Tagalongs
*Warm

Thankful for 3/3/11

*Getting some cleaning and hw done
*My mom coming and bringing food, getting groceries and Sharis
*Naps
*Fun reading through my Fox Film Festival script with Mya and Inge
*Hot showers/baths
*T Pain and Taylor Swift's "Thug Story"
*Caffeine
* Good food
*Open book tests
*Seeing Tyler after a few days of not.. weird cause I'd see him daily
*Amanda Graber's sneak attack (Well I didn't see her and she unintentionally snuck up on me)
*My family
*Friends
*God who loves me no matter how much I question and get angry at him.
*More working on our groups' the Office scripts and watching the PDA episode
* Ultimate frisbee in the mud, cold and under the stars
*Chasing Kris Brown and watching him get side tackled by a guy while I was chasing him. It was all in good fun. The other dude won the wrestling match. Everyone was riled up after the game so I got riled up too.

Thankful for 3/2/11

*Humor in the Bible class today and the circumcision jokes
*Yummy bruin's den food
*Cup of noodles
*Being invited to a frisbee peeps dinner on Sat. night!
*My pals Jared, Sadie and Elise
*Chocolate

Thankful for March 1st, 2011

*Hanging with Joe and Zack
*Bruin den food
*Friends
*A God who won't let me give up and loves me regardless of my mistakes
*Cup of noodles
*Getting to work on scripts for the Office for Scriptwriting in Media class
*Jared, Sadie, Nick, Elise and Lindsay
*This sudden urge to not have people tell me what I can and cannot do
*Good food
*Caffeine
*Warm clothes/accessories
*Passing my scriptwriting midterm

Thankful for 2/28/11

What I want to be doing right now!!

*Eating lunch with Adam, Dusty, Jacob and another girl (I forgot her name!!!)
*Hanging with Zack and Cody. Zack was comforting me when I needed it today.
*Josh Enobakhare being supportive too.
*Good food
*God
*Funny songs and youtube vids.
*Robin Hood: Men in tights
*Getting a free ASC shirt cause kfox is a sub committee!
*Getting a free polar bear plunge t even though I didn't do it!!!

*Tator tot jokes
*Humor and laughter
*Naps
*Sarah Baldwin hugging me and calling me friend! She's someone I look up to.
*Bob Da Nana
*Inge liking her present
*Talking to Krechen

Thankful for 2/27/11

How school is making me feel right now!!!

*Good food
*Anything warm
*Kirsten and Jaynie for giving a ride to Burger King and gave a second opinion on a dress (too bad it sort of didn't fit)
*A God who loves me no matter what

Things I am thankful for 2/26/22

*Warmth
*God
*Friends who look after me
*Players
*Good music
*Yummy food
*Actually enjoying dinner at the bon
*Glucose tabs
*Humor
*Laughter

Seeing

I am never self-assured,
I can't keep seeing what my worth is,
I'm just trying to find my place,
in this big world,
My eyes covered,
in fog,

But you won't let me go,
you hold on,
when I'm at my best,
even when I'm falling,
you always have your hands,
ready for mine,

This world can be cruel,
judgment,
hate,
fear,
sorrow,
pain,
it can be inescapable at times,

You call me vivacious,
you say I'm beautiful,
you keep me going,
only the way you know best,


When the sky is weighing,
you reach,
and help me soar,

Cause you can see,
something I'm missing,
you know the beauty that is true,
if only,
I could see like you,
but nonetheless,
I at best,
can call you friend,

You see me,
it brightens my wandering soul,
don't let me go,

Seeing is believing,...

Things I am thankful for 2/25/11

Fro yo, FRO YO! That's one of my catch phrases

*Finding out I passed my first exam in sociology, better than last term!
*Sunshine
*Others' presentations on Fairytales and folklore
*Warm clothes
*Warm anything
*Friends
*God
*Erin's surprise party: company, Beatles music, balloon fun
*Joe Grant giving me a ride back it is freeeeeeezzzziiiiinnnnng!
*Pizza men because they have to drive in this weather
*Pizza

Things I am thankful for 2/24/11

*First class canceled
*Sunshine
*Snow
*Puffy white clouds
*Tyler's snow pics
*Getting to take snow pics!
*Cheese
*Chocolate
*The Lady bruins game and the win!
*Fake fros
*Ultimate frisbee (although it was cold and the ground was nasty)
*Nick Largusa
*My friends
*God
*Snowmen
*Hot showers
*Jake taking me in his car after UF (it was coooolllldd)

Things I am thankful for 2/23/11

*Bruin den grilled cheese and tater tots
*Wonderful friends
*Hanging with Zack
*Eating with Geoff, Mya, Kris and the others
*Learning there's a way to minister through clowning
*Watching a cat video Zack showed that made me laugh SO hard!
*Robin Hood: Men in Tights
*Hugs
*An amazing God
*Simon's cat
*Art, photography, writing
*Laughter

*Being told by a classmate they enjoyed our video presentation last class
*Having Robert on Disco Hour with me!!!!
*"Just the Way You Are" Bruno Mars, such a sweet song!

Things I am thankful for 2/22/11 (Didn't feel like taking a photo today)

*Easy Mac and tuna
*God
*Sunshine
*Chillin with my bud Tyler
*Raindrops on grass, real pretty especially sunlight glittering off them
*Beanless Chili with Chedder cheese
*Actually enjoying a meal at the bon
*Pokemon for DS (I know, go ahead and laugh)
*Feeling confident about my Scriptwriting for Media midterm
*Bob the Banana
*Nice people
*My friends
*Caffeine
*Good food
*Heater
*Rainboots

Thankful for 2/21/11

*Bruin den food
*Hats like above
*Being told I look like a spring daffodil (mostly cause of color)
*Realizing I did my editing last night on my own, although truthfully it wasn't much of a challenge either
*http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=THrpJSstWZ8
*The people I sat with at dinner
*Having an awesome presentation
*Amazing friends
*Good food
*Writing

Thankful for 2/20/11

*My video camera
*Humor
*Honey
*Warmth of clothing, heaters etc.
*Laughter
*Getting to do film work again
*A successful filming session
*Having goldfish as I edited
*editing going smoothly
*Naaaaap

Thankful for 2/19/11

*Aviators
*Fun foam nerf swords
*While it sucks I had my power out, it didn't last more than an hour and a half, it could have been worse.
*Panpipe music
*Sunshine
*flashlights
*Young Life taking my cans for their fundraiser, hope they do well!
*Easy mac with tuna... yuuuuuuummmmmmm!
*Blankets
*Pizza
*Heaters
*Dr. Horrible
*fans
*chocolate milk

Tears

( I don't own this picture, got this off google pictures)

Beautiful things. There are two types of tears. Tears of joy and tears of sorrow. Tears of joy, when you are so happy, you are overwhelmed with happiness, you just start crying.

Tears of sorrow. When we are kids, we cry when we don't get our way, someone steals our favorite toy at playtime, and little things like that.

But when we are older, tears of sorrow come when you are in so much pain, sorrow and anguish, you cry. If you cry too much, you are a crybaby. I might be considered that. Fact, for me, crybaby's cry over every little thing. I cry when I'm upset, and sadly, less often when I am in overjoy mode. The last time that happened was when God showed me that I would be a mother after doubts I wouldn't last semester.

I still cry a lot, but I have not always been good at holding it in. If I try, it overwhelms me. Others may think I'm a crybaby, but I really am not. In fact, there are times I wanted to cry but I did not. People think strength is holding it in. But I disagree. Tears are beautiful. They show we aren't afraid to cry. It is not showing shameful weakness, but weakness of a humble kind. It is ok to be weak, it's ok to feel and it's ok to hurt. Life isn't easy, for anyone. Even the happiest of people hurt sometimes. God is what should strengthen us, and He gave us the ability to cry. Tears are art, art for those so lost, so alone, so in pain, they cry from the depths of their soul.

I also believe that the rain isn't just for making things grow, or giving us grief if there is constant downpour, but God's tears. Whether tears of joy or sadness, dunno, cause I'm not God.

One think men should note, and I think this is obvious, is when you see makeup, especially mascara running down her face, she's in tears.

I think I finally figured out why some men are not sure what to do when a girl cries, and I should have seen this sooner. It's because it's against what they are taught, that men don't cry. So when they see the socially constructed gender "made" (bull puckey) to cry, they are unsure what to do.

I see broken men as human. We all have things that wear us down. While I like seeing my guy friends happy, I'm not going to judge or make fun of them when they are down, crying, etc. I think they are strong cause they aren't afraid to cry, or feel. And no, that doesn't make them gay. That's what annoys me about society.

To recap, tears= beautiful side of pain. True, if it's crying in pain, not so pleasant to see, but there is beauty in it.

Thankful for 2/18/11

*Hot chili w/o beans
*Scott Pilgrim
*Caffeine
*Good food
*Gloves
*Pizza
*smiles
*Poetry

Thankful for 2/17/11

A cute hat I received from my mommy for Vday! Got it late but well worth the wait!

*DVD cleaner
*Tea
*Sunshine
* A warm bed
*Good food
*My mom's package
*Glucose tabs ( helps get my blood sugar back on track when low)
*lotion
*Ballet
*Two day shipping
*Jackets, hats and warm clothes/accessories
*For finally finding my nail grooming kit
*God
*friends
*Getting out of Scriptwriting class early
*A good, long, much needed nap
*Juice

Thankful for 2/16.11

I'm going to try to post a daily blog of things I am thankful for! And a daily photo of me doing something...

*Amazon
* Music
*Ballet
*God
*My family
*Zack Schmitt, Tyler Rhys Robertson, and all my other friends
*Tea and pumpkin spice chai
*Writing
*Warmth and heat
*Sunshine
*Disney movies
*the Beatles
*Hugs, esp. sandwich hugs
*Soda
*Good food
*Robin Hood: Men in Tights
*Movies and media classes
*Humor
*Support and encouragement
*Plaid
*Chocolate milk in an awesome princess cup. I'm a kid at heart!

Typical writer, and all that romantic jazz (Original Written Feb. 16, edited the 21st)

So I just got back from hanging out with one of the coolest cats, and he suggested I write a blog. I informed him I had one. True I haven't posted since November. Eek! Well not on this one. So, sitting at my desk, writing a blog, and drinking tea, like one of the true writers, I will muse on love.
Although technically they would be in a coffee shop, pen and paper. I'm still that old school.

But before I get into that, I usually do my theological or just random talk blogs on facebook. Here updates and poems. So I'm due to post one on here. And I'd rather type than be behind a pulpit.

Romantic love. It sucks. It's hard. Sometimes you wonder if it is worth it. I never really dated, there is no love life for me. And talking about sex makes me uncomfortable. I have had an unofficial relationship, but let's save that for another time. Haha, oh if you had seen me in high school. I was always obvious with who I liked, was an idiot about knowing love, and a bit of a stalker. Not full time, just part time. =p Yeah I pretty much did the creep. (If you haven't seen it, look at the tube).

But I have grown in that regard, although yes my obvious side is dimming, but traces still rear their heads. Love. Such a big word. I'm sorry, but I have a hard time fully believing you can fall out of love. Divorce means to me, you had puppy love, or a small or no trace, and then boom! There goes your marriage. I will always love David. I will always love Forrest, my love interest last year. But note the always. I just feel that if you really love someone, you can't fall out of Love. You just fall out of love. Capital letters always point to something big.

Love= Looking beyond faults, you will always feel it, worthwhile. love= We love each other. Oh, messy split, turns out I don't have feelings for you no more.

I have a cousin who is only a few years older, and getting married a second time. His first marriage, he did something, and the girl left. The worst part? She wasn't interested in saving it. And no, she was not abused, she I guess became someone else. I feel like that just showed love, but not Love. She didn't fight for it.

I love Love. It's wonderful. Not always easy. But wonderful regardless. It is painful. I Loved Forrest, but he didn't love me. But he treated me well, listened to me, he came and visited a lot. Has an amazing voice. I enjoyed every minute I was around him. At first, I was jealous he was dating someone, another friend. love. But then I realized I wanted nothing more than his happiness and strived for trust. Love.

Right now, I am going heads over heels for someone I'm getting to know. I'm giddy. Just ask my cool cattish friend, he saw that today. I care a lot about him. He's honest, he listens, and talks (which surprise surprise even a talker like me likes to listen) to me. He encourages me, and has a good heart. His eyes are amazing, he's handsome, and he has a warm, fun smile. We joke and laugh a lot. It feels natural. But it looks like once again it might lead to my fragile heart being broken. Sometimes I just want to give up on love.

But my friend Willy said something I'll never forget. He told me that I shouldn't give up, because then whomever I'm meant to be with will be lonely. He'll get into bad relationships, or worse. I don't want that. I don't know who he is yet, but whomever he is, I Love him, already because I have (with the exception of a few friends, parents and hospital people) had to take care of myself mostly throughout my life, more so recently. I just want someone to take care of me, and to have someone else to care for. To love. Everyone tells me, stop looking, cause once you do, you'll find them. Sorry, but that's probably not gonna happen. So if that's true, I might just want to live alone.

Someday my prince will come,...